Stress is In Alot More Than Just the Air

What an extremely long and emotionally exhausting day today has been. It completely tears me apart to see my mom so sad and heartbroken over my stepdad. I've heard so much crying and so many sobs come from my mom in the past week than I have heard in over five years. She wants so much to make my family happy and does so much for all of them, and I kind of feel like no body ever does anything for her. It's "a drag" when we need to help mom out, or even listen to her when she's going through these hard times. I just wish my familt would suck up their feelings and stop being so selfish and naive. This divorce isn't my mom's fault....it's completely my stepdad's. I've watched every single bit of this marriage over the ten years that they have been married; and Larry does absolutely nothing for her. I honestly don't even know when the last time they went out to dinner was. I guess it's not too much of a disappointment though, considering when they go to dinner, he makes my mom pay her own way. I am just completely on the edge now. I am so tired of seeing my mom being treated this way, and if he doesn't stop being such a fucking asshole and stop disrespecting her, I WILL BLOW UP. He has seen it before, and he will see it again. That mother f'er will be out of my house so fast, he won't even know what the hell is coming at him. ahhhhhh...I'm so aggravated, I sound like an animal.
Enough of that for right now though; I'm about to blow up.

Last night was fun at the BBQ. I love my family, I just wish they'd be more understanding and caring...that's all. I woke up at 5am today for school. Didn't get out until 3:30pm. I dropped Ilianna off at her house after school and then headed over to R.J's house. I started (and finished) my math homework there while he and Amit went swimming. After, we ate dinner and watched some of the RNC. Later after that, we went to Go Yogurt! and got some frozen yogurt..mmmmm. =] peanut butter with sno caps and rainbow sprinkles!.......How old am I? hahah. We got our yogurt to go and joined my mom up at Simi Hills Church. She was lonely and I felt like I should be accompanying her. She has a key to the church, so we sat inside and the three of us (my mom, R.J, and I) talked. When I got home, I found my mom crying again. I decided to hang out with her for a little longer because I don't want her to be alone. I just wish Larry would get out of this house already. I'll post again tomorrow. I'm exhausted. Thanks for listening...right.